I thought that things would actually work out between us that the fate might actually be in my hands to have something happen. But things don't usually favor my side and I've learned to accept that, as hard as it may be. One day they will work out. I just have to wait patiently in line for my turn. Sometime the patients runs dry and I"m overly hoping for something to happen. It's hard to remind yourself that things happen on the Lords time not yours. For me, sometimes it's a hard concept to grasp. In the end everything will work out.